Lately I have been learning a lot about the atonement of Jesus Christ and his impact in our lives. It has really helped me feel the spirit and think more about the Savior throughout these past few months. Something that has always stuck with me is a quote by Elder Jeffrey R. Holland, “It was required, indeed it was central to the significance of the Atonement, that this perfect Son who had never spoken ill nor done wrong nor touched an unclean thing had to know how the rest of humankind—us, all of us—would feel when we did commit such sins. For His Atonement to be infinite and eternal, He had to feel what it was like to die not only physically but spiritually, to sense what it was like to have the divine Spirit withdraw, leaving one feeling totally, abjectly, hopelessly alone.” It is extremely important for us to recognize the effect of the sacrifice that has taken place in Gethsemane. I can’t even fathom the fact that he loves everyone, every single one of us, to the point where he would physically die! What helped me to understand his atoning sacrifice in the garden is found in the New Testament.
Jesus took on the sins of the world in an olive garden. In that time period, olives were taken and crushed with huge stone wheels and then smashed between boulders. The pressure would be too much for the olives and would eventually seep out and become oil. This is what Jesus felt when he was saving us from our daily sins. In Mark 14: 3 it says “And he taketh with him Peter and James and John, and began to be sore amazed, and to be very heavy”. Jesus for the first time felt what sin was, and for him, it was a terrifying surprise and he was even awestruck by its might! In verses 35-36 it says “And he went forward a little, and fell on the ground, and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him. And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.“ In these verses, Jesus is pleading and begging with with the Father to take away what he was feeling. It brought him to the point where he was calling to Heavenly Father as Abba, which means daddy, as if Jesus were a child. That was how much sorrow and pain he was feeling. As I said before, what I cannot comprehend is the fact that he finished this task all because he loves us. He loved me so much that He was willing to be crushed and bleed, almost to death, there in the Garden of Gethsemane. No mortal could have survived that process. I feel so sorry to know that he had to have my pain, because the pain that I have gone through has hurt a lot. It hurts me even more to know that what I have felt in my lifetime, you can times by a million, and he would still have taken on more pain than me. Jesus had God’s power on Earth. It was so He would not be utterly destroyed when the time came for him to drink the bitter cup. I am so grateful to know that my Elder Brother suffered for me because he loves me and wants me to live with my Father once again. The will power Jesus had is literally incredible!
About 2 years ago I snapped my femur in a car accident. During that time I had a lot of resentment and hate in me. It was a pretty awful situation and I was in a different state of mind for quite a while. I didn’t care much about anything and I was just mad everyday because of the pain. After a few months I realized that even though my situation stunk, I had to change and put God back in my life. So I started back up with the basic stuff like praying and reading my scriptures and I felt an impact in my attitude and in how my day would go. I started to care more about my school work and I would try to make things work out and not complain as much, even though the pain was very frustrating. God was for sure helping me out once I did those things and I am glad that I was able to do better with Him more involved in my life. James E. Faust explains perfectly why we should let go of these kinds of pains, “Sometimes we carry unhappy feelings about past hurts too long. We spend too much energy dwelling on things that have passed and cannot be changed. We struggle to close the door and let go of the hurt. If, after time, we can forgive whatever may have caused the hurt, we will tap ‘into a life-giving source of comfort’ through the Atonement, and the ‘sweet peace’ of forgiveness will be ours . Some injuries are so hurtful and deep that healing comes only with help from a higher power and hope for perfect justice and restitution in the next life”.
Heavenly Father knew we would not be able to return to live with him again without the Atoning sacrifice of his son, Jesus Christ. I would like to share my testimony that I know that Jesus is the Christ, the Savior and Redeemer of the world, and I love him with all my heart.