by Travis (Guest Blogger)
How do I know that my Savior loves me? There was a time where I was asking this very same question in my own life. I knew that God lives and that Jesus in the Christ, but how was I to know that Jesus knows me and loves me personally when there are so many people that live, have lived and will live on the earth?
For starters I prayed and fasted to know for myself and to have my own testimony that Christ loves me, just as I had been taught all my life, “if any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God.”( James 1:5) As I prayed and studied with real intent and a real passion to know, I received, and still receive the answer to my question, Does Jesus love me?
One day I came across a scripture that I hold to be very dear to me. Jacob 5:41 says, “And it came to pass that the Lord of the vineyard wept, and said unto the servant: What could I have done more for my vineyard?” Now let me put this into my perspective and maybe you can see why it is my favorite scripture. With my question in the back of my mind, I interpreted this verse as follows: and it came to pass that the Lord of the vineyard, meaning Christ, wept asking what more could I have done for my vineyard – the vineyard being me. In this parable there are olive plants, and on these plants there are good and bad branches. The bad branches represented my sin, and as it says in this chapter “I will prune it, and dig about it and nourish it, that perhaps it perish not.” In my eyes I see the Lord saying He will do all He can to help me perish not.
As the chapter goes on the vineyard soon becomes overrun by the bad branches of sin, and seeing so led the Savior to weep asking what more could He have done. Now when I read this particular verse, I was overcome with a feeling of love realizing that Jesus gave his life for me, and I remembered a beloved hymn of mine: “I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me, confused at the grace that so fully he proffers me. I tremble to know that for me he was crucified, that for me a sinner, he suffered, he bled and died. Oh it is wonderful that he should care for me enough to die for me! Oh it is wonderful, wonderful to me!” (Hymn #193, I Stand All Amazed)
I knew at that moment that Christ does know me personally and He does love me even enough to bleed at every single pore for me. Enough to face any greater pain that only a God could imagine. Enough to be beaten and scarred. Enough to be hung upon a cross, left to die. I realized that He does love every single one of His brothers and sisters, no matter what! That even if we choose to not follow Him He still weeps and asks what more could He have done. Even after facing more pain than any human can even imagine, He is still willing to do more to show us His love.
This is a true testimony to me of Christ’s love for me as an individual. “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.” (John 15:13) I know that my Savior loves me and He loves every single person under any circumstances and that He, even facing so much pain and suffering, would suffer more for me, His friend.